may Allah bless you dad

I really need help


I'm studying medicine right now, & I always see in grey's anatomy that they have a depression after their first patient dies. And I've always thinking how that feeling would be...
But here is the problem: the first person I tried to save his life was my father, I get shocked when I saw that he wont respond to any stimulation, and no responses....

when they told us that he was gone, only one hot tear came down and I couldn't believe it until now.....

Every day I hear sound in the stairs or the door opened I say: that dad he finally came...
I just thinking like every time he goes in trip for couple of days and he will return.....


I just wish that could happen.....


I was complaining from mild depression, but now I'm worry that I would have complications

thanks Allah for all your bless